Sharing a prayer from my journal with you...
“Lord, I find it hard to trust in You right now. I am so thankful that You deal with us in
Your mercy and grace. I know that I
deserve Your judgment. Honestly, I have
not accurately represented You. But of
course You know that full well. Nothing
surprises You.
Time. What an invention by
us. Time is not the same with You. You see the beginning the middle and the end
SIMULTANEOUSLY. My mind has a hard time
grasping this, but I know it to be so.
In one sense, I am already in Heaven with You, joined again with Allie
in perfect peace. Could this be what You
meant when You taught us the model prayer to pray ‘Your Kingdom come, Your will
be done one earth as it is in Heaven’?
Could it be that the real challenge of this life is to live in such a
way as we are already in Heaven? Could
it be possible for the realities of Heaven themselves to overtake the realities
of the here and now? Oh how I hope so.
I am tired of pain. I am
tired of loss. I am tired of
mourning. I am tired of being
tired. And yet somehow in between now
and then in Heaven, there is a work that is to be done by You through us. At times I see glimpses of that work. Other times, I am like a blind man seeing
nothing.
Lord thank You for being the all knowing, all seeing God that You
are. Help me to have the eyes that You
have. Help me to be the son that sees
like his dad, acts like his dad, talks like his dad, and even feels like his dad. Honestly though, I just want what I see as
the good in this. The reality is that
Your heart must be touched by the evil, hurt, pain, suffering, and loss that
exists in Your world. Such a weight is
far too heavy for me to bear. So thank
You that Your timing is perfect and that I can trust in what You have revealed
to me now. Thank You that You don’t
require me to trust in what has yet to be, but only in what is. Help me to see it day by day and be content
to trust in the now. In Jesus name I
pray, Amen.”
Jeff Powell
