There are things that cannot be put into words. And I love words! I am what I call an “extroverted
thinker.” This translates into “I speak
BEFORE I think!”
But even still, there are those times that words are
just inadequate to describe the feelings inside. Through the death of Allie, we (Jane, Tyler,
Austin, Ashlynn, and myself) have been FORCED to feel such opposing
feelings...at the same time: Doubt and
Belief. Pain and Peace. Love and Hate. Calm and Anger. Laughter and Tears. Confusion and Understanding. Hope and Despair....
At times like these, words don’t cut it. Not the words we speak and not the words
others speak to us. At times like these,
Silence Screams! Only one that has
experienced the feelings I have described understands what I mean by Silence
Screams. Because things are
so....so...FORCED and so....so....OPPOSITE, words fail. Silence Screams.
This is Biblical.
Romans 8:26 says, “...the Spirit
helps us in our weakness. We do not know
what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans
that words cannot express.” Okay, I
know this does not address the opposing feelings at the same time, but it does
address “weakness” “not knowing” and “words that cannot be expressed” - all of
these are components of the opposing feelings I’ve described.
Silence DOES Scream!
Thankfully in the midst of the silence, I can find rest knowing that
God’s Spirit is praying for me with such force that words cannot even
express. I can rest in this. The Silence can Scream. It will never be louder than the groans of
the Spirit praying for you and me!
Jeff Powell
